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Today right now I feel like shit. I can barely function I'm so depressed. It started last night. I thought about my boyfriend. We've been together since May 24th. I have only seen him for two months of our relationship. It's my fault. For eing weak. For not handling things the way they should've been. i feel like such a fucking shitty girlfriend to him. I'm angry too. At myself and the girls who told on me. They fucking piss me off. Sometimes it all comes to a head, and I just want to die. I probably won't go back to school at the start of the new semester. It hurts to think of. We cannot find an opening with a doctor. I hate myself. If I wasn't like this none of this would've happened. I also realize that as long as i am alive I will continue to hurt those around me. I just dunno what to do. I'm so fucking lost, and i don't know if there's a way out anymore.