Pain | kotori4444's Blog

  I went to the eye doctor on Friday to see if my eye pressures are what's causing my migraines. It's not. I still have the one I got last week. I should probably go  to the Er but I don't see that happening. I am at school in my room. I spent the last half an hour puking. Usually that makes my head feel better but not today.
  I still have to lie about everything. The school social worker thinks my parents abuse me. She threatened to call CPS on them. It's all stressing me out so bad. My chest hrts all the time now. I get short of breath. My whole body hurts a lot too. I am really depressed and still contemplating my exit from the world. I want cutting back so bad. If I cut I can't come to this school anymore. I won't be able to handle that. And I throw up aftermost meals now probably because of the stress.
  Well my grandpa is dying. He's really old. He gets chest pains and goes to lie down to make it better. Apparently that's a sign that someone is dying. He has a  lot of health problems. Because he sleeps a lot he will probably die in his sleep. At least he won't be in pain. And he'll be with my mamal.  My great uncle L died yesterday. I loved him so much. He loved messing with me. His dogs (he allways had a lot of dog) were so cute.
  Bye I guess. I probably will write during fifth hour tomorrow. Unless I actually have to do work. lol s